Schiz

Schizoaffective disorder is a beast. If I’m not anxious, paranoid, or reliving trauma, I’m reeling from all three of these at once. I have to battle these effects on several fronts. Medically, emotionally, spiritually, physically, socially…

My emotional state is usually wonky, but that’s the bipolar of it, sometimes I’m on top of the world, and other times I’m in the depths. The voices from the schizophrenic part of my illness are largely taken care of, not entirely, but mostly, put this bipolar mess that I’m in hounds me every day. I cycle so rapidly, just within a couple minutes, it’s really frustrating to live through.

I want anyone who is reading to know that if you need to talk about your mental health, I’m here. I go to a group called the national alliance on mental illness (NAMI). It’s helping. I don’t know if anybody’s reading this. I never get any likes on my blog, but there are people who will listen. Mental illness can be worse than physical illness, because it never goes away, and it causes fear of death, just the same as cancer or heart disease.

Mental illness is a lifelong struggle. Show compassion to someone you know with mental illness today, and peace be with all of you…