Droplets Searching for the Ocean

We’re all just single drops of water searching for the ocean. We are moved, while thinking we are autonomous, by unseen currents that we cannot control. The living universe and all its parts are this ocean. Our little drops are living out their lives believing they are separate, but this is illusion. We are already one with the ocean, we just seem to all be stuck at the surface. We need not be obsessed with the ripples and waves of this surface, because we will rejoin the depths in due time. This is returning to Tao, The Way.

Once you are humble enough to admit defeat, defeat by the surface’s inability to fulfill you, The Way will be opened to you. When the ego has finally lost, the true self can emerge. Unfortunately, it takes suffering to prepare yourself for this humility. My best advice is to practice humility early, so it won’t take as brutal of a defeat to prepare you. Be prepared for naysayers, especially devout religious, they have a good path, but that does not mean they’ve already awakened. Stay true to your path and accept wisdom when it arrives, and don’t hesitate to share your wisdom with others. The world needs more of that.

The problem with ego is that it’s incredibly deceptive when it tells you who you are. It focuses on achievements or shame, and entirely leaves out any idea of more. If the ego were a courtroom summon, it would be a hostile witness. The problem is the ego is also the prosecutor and the judge at the same time, so the hostility is never disallowed. When you begin mindfulness meditation, you will undoubtedly be confronted by these three hostilities. Practice ignoring them and breathing. Unfortunately, it is the only way to start. Beginning with humility is imperative, or you will not succeed. 

FYI my mental health has been bad for the last year or so. As always, I only write in moments of clarity, and I feel a particular calling to share all of this information with all of you. I struggled for many years with thoughts of suicide and fear, which is one of the major reasons I started meditating. “Religion” never seemed to help all that much, and after years of trial and error, I had to make a change. I know now that 95% of the time, I can approach meditation as a way of alleviating stressful personal drama and recover from toxic interpersonal interactions. Growing in proficiency with meditation has been as helpful as the expensive medication, and I can use it on an as-needed basis. To my SPMI friends: There is aid available, and it has been within you all along. Don’t hesitate to find me if you need a friend. This is a difficult life. We all need support sometimes. Take your meds and be forthright with your doctor. 

Peace. And be well.